Vanity of vanities

Well, feels great to be writing again. I'm sitting on my couch, nibbling on candy corn and enjoying the chilly weather.

My life has changed so much. I find it almost unbeilevable. We're off the island now. This was our last summer. it seemed so...sudden. To watch that special place fade away before my eyes as the boat rocked away. The summer had seemed to have slipped through my hands like sand. I lost track of the time. I didn't know what I had until it was gone.

My dad is at the inn now. I don't see him too often. I miss him. It's been so hard to adjust to this new life and job. My heart grieves for my Dad. His heart is still in pastoral ministry. My mom, Morgan and I have seen his longing to be a pastor again. That is his dream. But, God has called him here, to Word of Life Inn. He didn't even think to go his way. He was set on God's will alone. I think that shows a lot of good character.

I've been learning a lot lately. God is teaching me a lot about Humility. He has really revealed a lot of selfishness in my heart to me and setting a path of humility beforeme. I've really been questioning my faith in God a lot. I've tried so hard to make God number one in my life. I've started to dig deep in his word every day and get ivolved as much as I can in clubs and youth grou in my church, but most importantly, I've been trying to spend much time in prayer. Wendall Calder read this quote in his message once;
"If you have everything but Christ, you have nothing. If you have nothing but Christ, you have everything."
I really want that to be my mindset.

"Vanity of Vanities all is vanity."

Totem pole

Wow! What an amazing summer I had! God has done an amazing work in my life. You would be blown away. God really used me in an amazing way! When I came to the Ilsand, my relationship with God wasn't real. When my dad was a pastor in Florida, I pretty much thought I was fine. I went to church every Sunday and sang the worship songs each time I went. I thought I was living the perfect Christian life. Then, the tables were turned. My church fell apart. We left. My dad got a job on the word of life Island. I had no idea what an amazing summer awaited me or what amazing people I would meet, like Stephanie Paun. Stephanie was God-sent to me, I'm certain! We would talk all the time about new things I should give to God or something I should pray about. But of all the things she told me, one of my favorites was about the example of a totem pole. She explained how we are like the tree, and God is the artist. He takes his knife, and tries to make us into something beautiful. But, as he carves us and shaves us, someimes it is very painful. It was hard to let God correct me. In fact sometimes it's even painful and scars are left. It sort of reminds me of 9-11. America froze as two planes hit the twin towers. Thousands died;Pain. We have sorrowful memories;Scars. People started questioning God. No one understood it. But I believe God used 9-11 to shape America. I think God used it to help us realize that we must not forget that though we are a free country, we will have bumps in the road, but we just have to get back up and let God work in us and someday, we will be a beautiful totem pole.

The two faces of Paige

Yeah! We now officially live on the island. How fun! I'm learning lots about God and growing closer to him. But, I find that the more I learn about God, the more I learn about myself. I've noticed that when I'm around my sister I tend to be a bit more sassy and bossy at times, and when I'm around my parents I act all cute and perfect. I know I need to treat my sis like everyone else and not hide what I really feel inside from my parents. That is my prayer.

My Dream of a French future

Well, I'm back from Florida. I had an amazing time! I learned a lot! Ialso got some great advice. I've gotten thinking about what I want to be when I'm older a lot. I've got a bunch of ideas but I don't know if God wants me in any of those ministries. I know I'm probably going to go to school at WOL Quebec. I would LOVE to learn French! I'm sure God will show what to do in time.

Psalm 9

I read this great psalm the other day while doing my devos. David's talking about God's deeds. He says God is loving, judging, a stronghold to the opressed, and my favorite, most high. I talked about it in my journal. What I've been doing lately is reading a Psalm a day and writing about it. This Psalm just spoke to my heart. How cool!

Psalm 9